Wise Life Counsel Inc. | Interlachen Village Plaza | 5458 Lake Howell Rd | Winter Park FL 32792

407-782-0134

When I fled my troubled home, passionately immersing myself in college, career, and family, I thought I had escaped the dark shadows, the pain.  Mid-life, forced to stop pretending, to stop running so hard,  I sought professional help.  “You must,”  said the therapist, “walk over to that closet where all the shadows are hiding.  You must throw open the door and look them all in the face, or they will haunt you forever.”  In the dark recesses, I found a grieving child, one I had abandoned to those shadows.

 

The Inner Child

At the top of the stairs
from the dry, dark concrete
basement of my soul,
I slammed the door
Trying to shut out her pain
Which seeped, like poisonous air
Up those wooden stairs.
I abandoned her there,
This part of my self,
This keening
      grief-filled
      despairing
      part of my soul.
With busyness, duty, and do-gooding,
 I distracted myself from
      her leaden sadness,
      her crying in the night.
But on and on she wept
       for decades:  
       for attention
       for compassion
       for help 
            in climbing up 
            the wooden stairs,
For love…from me.